So today will be a different kind of post as I, Jenny, am going to share with you my story of how I came to believe in God. I know this may not be a post for you all but if you have any questions about anything I write about in the post feel free to email us or comment and I would be more than happy to answer.
Where to begin. I was brought up in a Christian family so from a young age I was brought up going to church and getting involved in youth programs which was fun but I don’t think I really understood the importance of what I was being taught. It was around year 9 and year 10 when I was going to a Christian camp every summer for a week, that I really started to believe in what was being said. The camp was called ‘Westbrook’ on the isle of white and it was so so good. I made so many new friends and explored the bible in a fun and interesting way.
I remember sitting in one of the talks at this camp and listening to speaker talking about being forgiven and how Jesus died to save us all. He died to take away my sins and all my guilt on him was lain. Immediately I felt this wave of guilt and sin that I had carried with me for all these years suddenly begin to lift as I realised that I had been saved and my sin had been taken away. It was in that moment where I prayed a prayer asking God to forgive me and make me clean.
I then in the summer of 2013, got baptised giving my life completely to Jesus and proclaiming it publicly. I am going to be completely honest with you, at first I thought that after getting baptised I would be really spiritual and I would live a great happy life … how wrong was I. I actually struggled quite a lot in the following years with self-confidence issues. I had many moments where I would feel low and did some silly things. I fell away a lot from my faith as I just didn’t think there could be a God if he allowed me to suffer that much. I was angry at him and didn’t feel like doing anything spiritual or making time for God.
It wasn’t really until I went to university for my first year that I began to think about my faith again. At my university they have this society called the ‘Christian Union’. It is basically a group of people who are Christians/exploring Christianity meeting together every Tuesday to have a meeting with worship and a main talk which goes through bits of the bible. As a fresher who didn’t really know what was going on half the time, the thought of being part of something bigger was appealing and comforting so I went along. I ended up going all year round and now I will be a small group leader for next year which I am so excited about and I think God has worked amazingly in my life.
My faith has grown the last year into something that is a strong part of me and I honestly believe that God no matter what always cares and loves me. In all my suffering and bad times he was there. My life is great right now and who knows if I hadn’t have gone through all the bad times maybe my life wouldn’t be as great as it is now. I certainly wouldn’t have such a strong faith. It was all in his plan and I am entirely grateful.
No matter who you are or what you believe in I want you to know that God loves you and he cares for you. Whatever you have done or are going through Jesus died so that you can be frogiven and guilt free. He is looking over you and is proud of the person you are today. You are loved so much and I just hope that whatever you are going through you know that.
Like I have said, if you have any questions or anything you want to talk about feel free to message me. If you are feeling lost or full of guilt or maybe you are struggling with similar issues that I have, please know you are not alone and I would be more than happy to talk through things with you. Even if you just want some prayer let me know and I will be more than happy to pray for you.